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Trying to cope

I confess; I'm having a REAL HARD time dealing with this cat situation.

I'd talk about it, but that wouldn't be fair or right. I've talked about it to the right person, and as usual, it's an unpleasant subject. Therefore, not a word's being said.

I'm not going to budge this time, until SOMETHING TRUE is said to me, something FINAL.

I hate this.

I swore I wouldn't deal with it again, and yet...


Any rational person who knew the whole situation, from beginning until today, would side with me for several reasons. Again, none of which I can get into in /here/. I'm not getting any better with the situation; if anything, I'm growing angrier, realizing so much more things about the cat's reality. If something like /this/ can make me so grossly unhappy, I have to consider my life, right?!

I'm sure this is obscure, since I've made no entries about it, nor have I made any friend's only statements. I'm trying to just get over it, but...I shouldn't /have/ to. I did try to get my friends (who're still involved with T.E.A.R.S. and animal adoption groups) to find one similar, since I'm unusually not allergic, but no one's come up with this particular one.

This whole situation is making me kind of sick. My dad always said never let an argument go down with the sun? Well, this situation has gone from a YEAR to another.

Doesn't bode well for...well, any of what I'd planned. =/ Right now, If I "say" anything to the other party, I have a feeling it'll be painted with this angry brush I hold in my hand. So I'm avoiding it at all costs. Might as well; the aforementioned wouldn't dare mention it. In fact, this person has talked about everything BUT the cat over the past 72 hours.

And if you just wasted two minutes of your time reading, asking questions probably won't be a good idea. I'll probably ignore 'em, or dodge them altogether, since this is a real diary entry. But if you have ideas as to how to make other people see reason, by all means...no, no, I take that back, too.


Sometimes, I really DO feel so alone on this planet. Frustrating.


( 46 whispered — Speak )
Jan. 1st, 2008 06:39 pm (UTC)
"I have a feeling it'll be painted with this angry brush I hold in my hand"

yeah, there's something to be said about saying what's on your mind, but sometimes it is best to kind of hold back and distance yourself from it a bit before speaking your mind... then you don't have to be all like "i shouldn't have said that this way, b/c so-and-so is just going to discount what i said as "oh, he/she is just angry and didn't mean that..."
Jan. 1st, 2008 07:48 pm (UTC)
Ohhhhhhhh, I've distanced myself for DAYS now. And I guarantee (would place my famous $100 bet) that it won't be brought up UNLESS *I* do it.

That's NOT the way it's supposed to work. However, THIS time, I refuse. It'll be brought up by the other party, or I'll have to maintain this aloofness. You make a promise, you keep it. If you can't keep it, have a DAMN GOOD AND VALID reason for not. That's how I see it. And since I haven't heard even a halfway decent "DAMN GOOD AND VALID" reason for this not occurring, I'm going to have to stand my ground -- not because I'm afraid of what I have to say, but because I've said it once; and I'll be damned it I turn into a harpy. That would make me just like most wives in the USA. Not my style.
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:27 pm (UTC)
Well, in situations like this, I simply offer a hug, a smile, and maybe a warm cup of tea :D

Jan. 1st, 2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
Awww, you're a sweetie :)

The situation, however, just got a little worse than it was. *sigh*
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:36 pm (UTC)

This calls for chocolate!
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:38 pm (UTC)
I know it. :(

Nooooooooo! No chocolate. I was wearing a size zero, and now, I'm into a bad five and a good four! lol :)
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:48 pm (UTC)

Nothing to hug in a zero!
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:50 pm (UTC)
I'm huggable!! I'm soft and I smell good!! :P :) Zeros need love, too.

Er...or something :D
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:55 pm (UTC)

*hugs you*
Jan. 1st, 2008 09:57 pm (UTC)
You laughin' at me? My grandmom laughed at me once. Once.


*hugs you bach*
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:56 pm (UTC)

With all the latest media buzz about size zero being unhealthy, bony, etc... Your comment was hilarious :D

So what happened to grandmom?

Jan. 1st, 2008 10:58 pm (UTC)
Zero is the new two, two the new four, four the new six, six the new eight, and eight the new size 12. YIKES.

If I told you about grandmom, I'd hafta kill yas. :>
Jan. 1st, 2008 11:06 pm (UTC)
But.. But.. Grandmom's are nice people!
Jan. 2nd, 2008 05:48 pm (UTC)
Remember -- grandmas used to be OUR age. Don't forgive 'em simply because they're old! LOL

Teasing...I volunteer at a nursing home, so we all know how I feel about grannies :>
Jan. 2nd, 2008 05:56 pm (UTC)

Yeah, I guessed you were teasing me :D
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:29 pm (UTC)
Great icon, btw. :)
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:39 pm (UTC)
You're most welcome :) You tend to be far more gesticulative than most men :) This is a good thing, btw. Maybe *you* should write that book!
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:49 pm (UTC)

I grew up around very strong female personalities, and strong silent men... So yeah, I became fairly vocal :D
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC)
Strong, silent men make the world go 'round :D
Jan. 1st, 2008 08:56 pm (UTC)
Yeah... But they tend to be boring :P
Jan. 1st, 2008 09:58 pm (UTC)
Oh HELL no! See? That's why I need to write that book. Still waters run deep ;-) Chicks like the quiet, mysterious type :D
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:23 pm (UTC)
Ya know, my 6th grade teacher wrote quotes about everyone in her homeroom class. Mine was, "Still waters run deep." I didn't understand it back then. I certainly do, now. But this was before I was able to throw my voice out in online forums. I don't think I'm so still anymore.
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:28 pm (UTC)
No, no...not anonymous internet stuff; real-life men, who're sexy, quiet and mysterious :) My fave :)
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:50 pm (UTC)
What I MEANT was that if you met me in person, you'll see that "Still Waters Run Deep" aspect of me. Online, I tend to be more vocal and less "still."
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:52 pm (UTC)
Ooooooo so are you all sexy like the quiet water men? Yessssssssss. Complete with six-pack! Yay!
Jan. 1st, 2008 11:22 pm (UTC)
Well, I got a six-pack o' something...

Jan. 2nd, 2008 05:50 pm (UTC)
Sprite? :D Yay!!!!!!! lol :) I'm allergic to alcohol.
Jan. 3rd, 2008 06:27 am (UTC)
Actually, more like 12 packs of Sprite, Coke, and Dr. Pepper. I don't really like beer.

Yup, I know about the alcohol allergy. It's a shame, but you're probably better off without it.
Jan. 3rd, 2008 07:25 pm (UTC)
No, no tis not a shame. Even if I wasn't allergic, I wouldn't drink it. You know how I feel about alcohol consumption. Just not for me ANYway.
Jan. 1st, 2008 10:56 pm (UTC)
See? NOW I know what I've been doing wrong!

Jan. 1st, 2008 10:59 pm (UTC)
Were you all loud and purging everything in one date? Tsk tsk!
Jan. 1st, 2008 11:07 pm (UTC)
Oh nooooooo! Not in one date! There has to be some mystery!

More like I'm engaging, offering tiny details to get my date to talk more, and still maintaining a fair balance of airtime :P
Jan. 2nd, 2008 05:49 pm (UTC)
"A fair balance of air time."


I'm just like you -- never "unpleasant silences" when I'm around. I'm told I'm easy to hang out with :)
Jan. 2nd, 2008 05:57 pm (UTC)

It's not a woman thing... Everybody loves to talk about their favourite subject - Themselves...
Jan. 2nd, 2008 09:24 pm (UTC)
Why I nevah! I would never talk about myself. LOL :)

Wait...is it "scrog"?
Jan. 2nd, 2008 09:48 pm (UTC)
Sprog :D

You don't? Wow... So who do you talk about? ;)
Jan. 2nd, 2008 11:40 am (UTC)
where you be at? its not even the crack of dawn and i'm up before you???
Jan. 2nd, 2008 04:13 pm (UTC)
Aohell logged me off!! Where you be?
Jan. 2nd, 2008 10:07 pm (UTC)
whilst you were all snuggles in the insomnia bed, i was freezing my ass off this morning in a practically empty warehouse.

did you hear a large metallic ringing sound about eleven o'clock? that was my balls freezing off and hitting the cement floor.
Jan. 2nd, 2008 10:13 pm (UTC)
ROR!!! Poor thing! You need to bring your old man sweaters with ya! :> Wear thicker socks, too. Maybe some women's tights...just sayin'... :D
Jan. 2nd, 2008 10:20 pm (UTC)
today i "layered"

and what makes you think i wasn't wearing women's tights?

tomorrow i bring bruce springsteen with me and stuff him down my shirt (s). oh yeah, and another pair of socks wouldn't hurt (wore two today)
Jan. 2nd, 2008 10:24 pm (UTC)
Hahaha re: BS. Um...you know his body temperature is around 110-115. That's why having even the tiniest dog in bed keeps ya warm :) That's also how three dog night got their name :> little trivia for ya...
Jan. 2nd, 2008 10:33 pm (UTC)
3 dog night
i'd heard it was something pertaining to it being "as hot as..." a three dog night.

hmm. yeah, he's going down the sweater tomorrow
Jan. 2nd, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
Re: 3 dog night
I'm sure I told you the story; they were dirt poor before fame, and had no electricity. In the winter it got REALLY cold, and they would say "yeah, it's gonna be a three-dog night". :> The dogs warmed them up. :)
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Jan. 4th, 2008 12:00 am (UTC)
Thanks, sweetie. It's rough, and I'm trying to cope but...you know how those rifts are. That's the only cat I've never been allergic to; and his little personality is awesome. =/
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