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A dreary Sunday update

Even though I have nothing noteworthy to write about, or even vaguely interesting. The spawn just went to her grandmom's, and I have a rare moment of being alone with nothing to do.

Well, I'm stressing about the job situation. Something's GOT to happen soon. I'm starting to appreciate the fact that I got a CBGB's shirt before they went out of business, that I bought crystal in Europe when the mark rate was down, and that I have good taste in clothing, which has held up for years. Because if I had to depend on "new" things, I'd be running around naked, surrounded by nothing but books.

This week I have several interviews. I've decided that my notion of "a small company working towards a common goal" is unrealistic; and that these are the companies headed straight for a fall and quick. And really, there's no such thing as "working towards a common goal" these days. It's every man for himself, sink, swim, drown. Depressing but realistic outlook, based on very recent experience.

We've found a buyer for my parent's house. I only pray that this situation is resolved quickly. We've lived in limbo since their deaths, and there's only one reason for it - my cousin's lack of motivation to complete the will. Lazy? Incompetent? Does it even matter WHY it's still open? It's his fault, plain and simple. My brother and I are content with the fact that we've broken all ties with that part of our family. Hell, they never were "there" for all these years ANYway. No sense in trying to hold on. I think part of this feeling is because we're adopted. Hard to say.

Yeah, the weather
We've gone through about a week's worth of gloomy weather. No major daily storms, or anything noteworthy. Just gray and foggy. This ain't England, but it's surely pretending to be. The weather has been unseasonably warm, which is a plus (with the exception of my hair) and it seems we have more foggy days to look forward to. I want just one, serious storm. I love staying in during a thunderstorm (preferably with a member of the opposite sex but hey! you can't have it all). I don't think we're going to see many (if any) seriously cold days this year. That's fine by me.

Spiritual
So I've decided that it's time I found a church which I want to attend, one which espouses my beliefs (or as close as possible). The spawnlette is in, I just found out, and I haven't had a church since I started volunteering to play piano at SouthHaven. Despite what others who read this might think (not that it matters), I need a bit of spirituality injected into my gray matter. I feel lost without it. It'll be tough, finding a proper church which I feel is close to my beliefs, but I'm sure with enough seeking, I'll find. Perhaps on the southside, where they're a little more liberal.

Nada mucho
So this no work thing is depressing, and I'm not participating in my usual hobbies. I just got paid for the auction I worked which was a sweet little incoming check, and am hoping they'll call on me in a couple of months when they're back. I'm not a material girl - but right now, I'm living on Ramen noodles. This is, in a way, good because I'm close to being back to as thin as I was this time last year. Not dangerously thin, but a bad 4, good 2. I'm not getting enough exercise, and feel winded when I do. This worries me because of the heart thang.

I'd actually intended to write something prolific in here, but now find myself wanting for just the right combination of words to express how I feel. This blanket of gray is painting my world right now, so I suppose I should simply go to bed early tonight, and hope for some sunshine.

You just wasted two good minutes of your valuable time to read nada. *snorts* That'll teach ya. :>

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summercamp
Jan. 4th, 2009 09:33 pm (UTC)
Good luck in your job search this week!

I would hate weather that had no sun or rain. My best friend used to live in Sacramento and one winter they had a whole month of that, where there was about 3 degrees between the high and the lo every day. I don't see how even Seattle people can live with their weather, but then maybe I'm spoiled...

And good luck with searching for a new church too!
none_too_subtle
Jan. 4th, 2009 10:03 pm (UTC)
Yeah, dreary is the best way to describe it, which of course makes ya unmotivated to do anything. And thank you.
ayoub
Jan. 4th, 2009 09:40 pm (UTC)
*hugs you*
none_too_subtle
Jan. 4th, 2009 10:03 pm (UTC)
*hugs you back* :>
farranger
Jan. 4th, 2009 11:02 pm (UTC)
"[...]running around naked, surrounded by nothing but books."

Didn't Borges write a short story about that?
none_too_subtle
Jan. 4th, 2009 11:03 pm (UTC)
Hm. I don't know, but in retrospect, it sounds like a damn good idea :)
smacklyn
Jan. 5th, 2009 02:32 am (UTC)
Y'all gots UU down there?
If you feel like exploring a Unitarian Universalist church down yonder holler, I'll join you if you'd like the company :)
none_too_subtle
Jan. 5th, 2009 02:37 am (UTC)
Re: Y'all gots UU down there?
Not sure if we do or not. I'd be willing to explore it, though.
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