I know of two family members who've read my journal.
But to know that MANY of them read my journal, KNOW how sick I am and have been, and have NEVER offered to help, makes me feel sick on so many levels and for different reasons that I can't even get in to it.
Happily, I've kept so much to myself and in friend's only entries. Evil. There is no other word for it.
I feel like some serial rapist just rummaged through my underwear drawer.
THAT'S RIGHT. YOU. GET...THE HELL...OFF MY JOURNAL. You want /nothing/ to do with me, and yet READ ME?
You're jealous because not only do I speak English, but I comprehend what I read, too. I know it's befuddling, but true. Maybe YOU want to go back and REALLY READ. It's clear, while mentioning my LIVE JOURNAL, that no one READ beyond the fact that I finally opened it.
Ugh. And that's really all I'll say about it. It's gross knowing your family members are all rubbing their hands together, reading about your daily life.
Believe me. Nasty.
But to know that MANY of them read my journal, KNOW how sick I am and have been, and have NEVER offered to help, makes me feel sick on so many levels and for different reasons that I can't even get in to it.
Happily, I've kept so much to myself and in friend's only entries. Evil. There is no other word for it.
I feel like some serial rapist just rummaged through my underwear drawer.
THAT'S RIGHT. YOU. GET...THE HELL...OFF MY JOURNAL. You want /nothing/ to do with me, and yet READ ME?
You're jealous because not only do I speak English, but I comprehend what I read, too. I know it's befuddling, but true. Maybe YOU want to go back and REALLY READ. It's clear, while mentioning my LIVE JOURNAL, that no one READ beyond the fact that I finally opened it.
Ugh. And that's really all I'll say about it. It's gross knowing your family members are all rubbing their hands together, reading about your daily life.
Believe me. Nasty.
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- 8 Aug 2019, 21:28I occasionally come in here. THIS time, when I popped in to respond to you, someone had reset my password. YAY. o.O
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- 7 Jun 2019, 16:59Yummmmm. I want more!
- 7 Jun 2019, 16:58Ughhhhhhh the phone rang (doctor with called-in script), and I can't sleep. :/ This is bad.
- 7 Jun 2019, 16:57Hahaha. My DAUGHTER took this pic at a restaurant when I was obviously unaware that I was spilling out of my shirt. O.o
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Whatcha doing on Wednesday?
It's pathetic. And to think I was leaning towards getting him to handle mine, and am SO glad to see all this now.
DOH.
I know EXACTLY who directed...the cousin to my Live Journal. I just tracked her. I knew it. And she's ALWAYS hated me (from childhood, no less, for reasons I won't get in to here). But yes--I try to stay conscious that not only do younger kids read this, but also family members. Thus the "temperament" in here. *sigh*
See why I want to run from my journal? Have you EVER READ anything encouraging or helpful from my family in here? THAT WOULD BE NO. NOT EVER. And clearly, they AT LEAST know my situation. That's what makes all this even worse.
Yep - thats one of the reason why I keep my lj relatively vague. I'd be mortified if anyone I didnt want to know 'knew' of my journal.
Its for me by me.
I can rant, rave, talk utter bollocks or just ramble.
Buts its a place of comfort for me and my thoughts.
Keep smiling and don't let things get you down.
It's always been a possibility that "family" would read; however, why would they? I went through all of that in my head. And quite frankly, I only know of /one/ who does read (and she reads because she's a psycho...not even a relative, just married to one). After all this, I'll STILL journal publicly.
If I wrote a book, I'd combine reality with fantasy, and boom -- same results, you know? So I'm not going to start hiding how much tuna I eat, just because of some idiots with NO LIFE whatsoever.
Interestingly enough, I was browsing a dating site, and found -- oops!! -- my sister-in-law in there, status: for dating men. I wonder if any other relatives (like OH I DUNNO HER HUSBAND?) have seen that ad? I'm thinking so. I think they have a polyamorous marriage, and I'm finding out the hard way. And the ONLY way I found out about her was because she'd hit MY SITE so many times. LOL.
Yeah...I'm tempted to pick up the phone, or even make an entry about THEIR situation, but I'll resist.
For now.
If things get worse, I might just have to speak the truth all up in here for /everyone/ to read. Now that my journal's "known" to family members, might as well "talk to them" in my own format. God knows I won't let them talk /back/.
And that, my friend, is kinda cool ;-)
**No more caffine for nts today** :)
LOL :) Don't forget I type 130 WPM, so it's easy to respond, and respond well when someone writes to me :D